God's Plan and Purpose

Well the treatments this summer didn’t work. Everything looked perfect in July for our final IUI with Gonal-F round. I responded so well. Even the doctor was pretty sure this was it for us! However, it wasn’t to be. We sat down with our doctor about a month ago to go over our options. He has no idea why we haven’t bee able to get pregnant. Our only option, according to him, is to do IVF.  After breaking down and crying as we were leaving the office, I pretty much thought this was it for us. There is no way we could afford IVF since my insurance doesn’t cover it.

However, my very smart thinking husband pulled up his insurance benefits. We called and went over

the options with his insurance. It turns out they provide really good coverage for fertility, including IVF! We are going to change me over to Daniel’s insurance starting in January. However, we still need to save up for the deductible and copayments. We are hoping to start IVF in the late spring…maybe April or May.

We are considering IVF Plan B, though. We believe that God is bigger than this. It could be His plan to do the IVF but we also are praying and believing in a miracle. I have started a natural supplement to try to regulate my cycles and even after only two weeks, I seem to be responding well to it. Only time will tell. But Daniel and I are trusting in the Lord’s plan. He knows the desire of our heart and we believe He will give us a child…. whether through natural conception, IVF, or adoption. We continue to pray over which direction we should take.

In addition, we are feeling led to start an infertility group at our church. According to statistics, 1 in 8 couples struggle with getting pregnant. We know we are not alone at church, yet it feels like it because it’s not really addressed. I can’t be the only woman at church avoiding services with baby dedications, crying with silent tears as I see the young couple holding their newborn baby across aisle. Worse yet is Mother’s and Father’s Day. Having all the moms and dads stand so everyone can clap and honor them. What about the couples whose dream of being a mom and dad seems farther and farther away everyday?

Daniel and I feel there should be something to address that at church. We are working on becoming more involved and training to lead small groups. Our church is completely on board with our vision and Daniel and I are so excited to see how God will use us.